We Don't Have to Dance

[008] CampNaNoWriMo

Sat, 30 Jun 2018 11:39:32 GMT

CampNaNoWriMo starts tomorrow. I signed up with a goal of 10k words, which seems pretty doable. I am probably going to divide those 10k words into multiple fanfics. I am (probably) more than half-way through the sequel to "Don't Be a Jerk and Hug Me Back". I say probably because my characters are doing whatever they want as usual. It was supposed to be a short, cute get-together fanfic but at some point it turned into a multi-chapter angsty piece. I mostly blame Alex.

I've got 8k words so far and I think about 5k more should be enough to finish it. Give or take a thousand words.

Once I'm done with that, I've already got a lot of ideas for shorter fics set in the same verse. Most of them will also be used as fills for my Hurt/Comfort Bingo card.

( Bingo plans )

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[007] Fanfic: Don't Be a Jerk and Hug Me Back

Fri, 29 Jun 2018 19:13:18 GMT

Title: Don't Be a Jerk and Hug Me Back
Fandom: 13 Reasons Why
Characters/Pairing: Alex/Zach
Genre: Gen/Pre-slash
Rating: PG-13
Length: One-shot, ~3,5k
Spoilers/Timeline: Set in between S1 and S2. Spoilers for both seasons. Canon-compliant.
Warnings: References to suicide attempt, some angst
Summary: It's the winter in between S1 and S2. Alex is learning how to be normal again. Zach is still haunted by demons of his own. They get closer and find comfort in each other's company.
Series: Somewhere Between Broken and Happy

Zach is getting cabin fever. He likes spending time with Alex, he really does, but they've been stuck inside the house for six hours now and that’s way too long for Zach.

They met for a PT session that morning. When Alex's mom dropped him off, Zach offered to drive him home after: Carolyn accepted gratefully and invited him to lunch. Alex told him he was going to regret it since lunch probably meant kale, quinoa and a tasteless, sugar-free, dry cookie “as a treat”. Zach shrugged and said he didn't mind. He wasn’t lying either: he devoured everything Carolyn put in front of him and even asked for a second cookie. What he really enjoyed, though, was the company. When Alex later told him that he should try eating that every day, Zach laughed and said, “Yeah, I actually miss pizza already.” What he really wanted to say, though, was that maybe Alex should try eating alone most days and having to stare at his dad's empty chair right in front of him.

Keep reading @ AO3

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[006] Current fandoms (WIP)

Sun, 24 Jun 2018 20:41:12 GMT

( General kinks )

( Arrow-verse )

( 13 Reasons Why )

( Beartown )

( Other fandoms )

( Awesome people )

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[005] Hurt/Comfort Bingo

Sat, 23 Jun 2018 14:51:29 GMT

I just signed up for Round 9 of Hurt/Comfort Bingo (hc_bingo).

Deadline: Jan. 5, 2019
Minimum word count for fanfics: 500 words
Fandom/ship: any
Useful links: rules; FAQs; list of all prompts; bingos, extras & achievements

( My card )

Status: WIP
Last updated: Jun. 23, 2019

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[004] Early morning musings

Fri, 22 Jun 2018 04:53:15 GMT

I woke up at 4am this morning. I usually go right back to sleep. Today I got up instead. I opened a window, made myself a cup of Earl Grey tea, and read until the alarm told me it was time to get ready for work. I'll sleep in tomorrow, make up for some lost sleep. But how many chances do you get to read a great book on an early summer morning with a storm thundering in the distance to keep you company?

I haven't always been an early riser. I used to be a night owl in my teens. Then something changed and I learned to appreciate the early hours of the day. I love early mornings, when almost everyone is still asleep, for the same reason why I loved late nights: because they feel like they belong to me alone.

It's on an early morning like this one that I realized I don't belong in big cities. Other people can have them. People who love crowds and constant stimulation. I find happiness and beauty in silence, solitude and space. It might seem like a small thing to realize, but it changed the course of my whole life.

I thought about it this morning, in between chapters and sips of tea. And then I decided that the trip I'm planning to New York for next year can wait. I'll get there eventually, but not yet. Not in 2019.

In 2019, I'm going back to Northern Europe.

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[003] Us Against You

Thu, 21 Jun 2018 18:26:57 GMT

I had the afternoon off work today. I was planning on crossing a few things off my to do list. Instead, I curled up on the couch with my Kobo e-reader and several cups of tea. I don't regret it at all. When I was a child, I used to do that all the time. Now it's a luxury and I enjoyed every second of it even more because of it.

The book I'm reading is called Us Against You by Fredrik Backman. It's the sequel to my favorite book, Beartown, and I couldn't wait for the English translation to come out. I've loved books before, but I can't remember ever loving one as hard as Beartown. I don't remember ever caring about book characters so deeply. I hurt for Benji and rooted for Amat and cried with Kira and felt their frustration and anger and fear.

So I couldn't wait for Us Against You to come out but I was also scared that I wouldn't love it as much. That it wouldn't be as good. That it would be only okay. That I would be disappointed.

I wasn't.

I have read just over half of it now and I am just as in love with it as I am with Beartown. It's perfect. It's brilliant. It made me laugh and cry within the same paragraph. It fills my heart with so many feelings that it's hard to keep them inside.

I cannot wait to finish it but I also never want it to end. A book cannot get any better than that.

I'll probably write more about it once I've finished it. Now I'll hurry back to my Benji. ♥

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[002] Fandom Giftbox

Thu, 14 Jun 2018 18:05:31 GMT

Today I signed up for fandomgiftbox, which is "a summer fanworks gifting fest inspired by Fandom Stocking." I picked 6 fandoms: 13 Reasons Why, Arrowverse, Beartown (which is a fandom of one, I'm well aware), Avengers, Avengers RP (aka Sebastian Stan) and Sense8. I can't wait for giftboxes to be posted so I can start filling them. After I don't even remember how many years, I finally feel inspired to write again and it feels so good.

Last Saturday I wrote a fanfic, the first one in years, and i didn't even really struggle. It just came out. It was like it was already written in my head and I was just typing it up from memory. It never happened to me before. I don't know how long it's going to last, but I'm going to take full advantage of it while it does.

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[001] Hello, hello

Sat, 09 Jun 2018 20:26:27 GMT

I don't mean to get all existential right from the start, but I don't know what I'm doing here. I've been living my online life 140 characters at a time for a while now and I guess I'm ready to commit to longer sentences. Who knows, even whole paragraphs!

So, hello, my name is Chiara and I've been a proud fangirl for more than half my life now. I've been in more fandoms than I can remember and I've fallen in love with more characters and ships I like to admit. I'm currently dating the Arrowverse fandom, but we have an open relationships and I'm also seeing other fandoms. Namely, The Avengers, The X-Men, and 13 Reasons Why. The Arrowverse fandom is cool with it, I promise.

If you want to be friends, drop me a comment.

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